I don’t truly understand the majority of humans’ views of being naked. I love to be naked and now that I am a little more forward with it (instead of being just naked in my room I am known for my nudity in mass media), I have received various reactions. Now I may be a nudist at heart, but I live my life like anyone else in society (wearing clothes). What I don’t understand is why am I so comfortable being naked, and why other people are so scared and non-excepting of these actions.  I personally understand the fact that I was born without clothes and many ages ago people probably didn’t have much covering them at times. Okay so your saying yea times have changed and we now have an abundance of clothing options, but who cares. I mean honestly just cause everyone has an Ipod doesn’t mean I’m going to go out an buy one (I don’t own one and have no need for one). Don’t get me wrong I think they are cool (I have borrowed my friends for my solo flight to Vegas on my b-day once), but I have no need for it. So when its super hot outside or warm in my home, what need do I have for clothes (with the exception of some activities)?

To me being naked is like celebrating myself and who I am. “This is me, I have no fear,” screams my body and soul! Most people are uncomfortable by my ease with nudity. Just because I enjoy being naked when possible doesn’t make me a slut, “show off”, or a stripper (current or past), this is merely me being me. Now I’m sure if you are a guy that gets horny over me regularly you are thinking, “I’d let that hot piece of ass run around naked all day if she wanted-she must be talking about all the jealous women! What man wouldn’t let her be naked?!” Well you are wrong sir! Men (including boyfriends) and women get uncomfortable about my nudity. I’m truly the kind of person who sits and works on the computer naked, reads a book on the porch naked, goes to nude beaches, dances naked (privately in my room or at my favorite club-music/bar club not strip club), prefers posing in artist nudes over fashion, and best of all sleeps naked! I personally wonder if I am the only person who enjoys doing this. I’d hate to imagine I marry someone someday that is not comfortable with my naked life style.  I’ve always been into living life naked. I’m about to experience it in the most extreme way possible and that is going to a nudist resort for a week. This will be my first experience. I’ve wanted to go to a nudist resort in the past, but never made it. It was a swingers/nudist resort in Oakland, CA that HBO’s Real Sex did a story about. That was when I was more into the idea of swinging or watching people have sex through the sliding glass door to their rooms! I’ve grown up and realized that is probably not the best or safest way to interact with multiple people. But this is a legit nudist resort where celebrities go and families spend vacation time (google search Desserts Shadow Inn).SELF QUESTIONAIRE:Am I scared? No. Am I worried about how others will treat me there? No, because I’m hoping they feel the same way about life. Will I be having any swinger experiences? I’m not planning on it but if the moment strikes you’ll be the first to know.Will I be scared of seeing people older than me?Not really I’d go with my family if they were into this stuff. So far my flight to Palm Springs has patrons of 50+, this is the equivalent to a trip to God’s waiting room aka Florida. That doesn’t bother me in the least. In fact I have a feeling I much wiser than people my age, and for that I believe in your older age you become more at easy with yourself and with life. I actually hope I run into a couple of these nice older people I’ve met on the flight. I don’t look at people like sex objects when they are naked, I see past that. Don’t get me wrong if Fabio past me in the buck I would probably follow him with drool running down to my tits! Nonetheless, I think someday when I have a family I would go to the nude beaches. Now you are wondering “why do I know so much about them, were my parents nudist hippies or open with that?” Not at all! In fact my family is so conservative that when I told them I was going to a nudist resort in CA, they totally were like CA is nice blah blah blah, but made no comment or notice to the nudist resort part. I won’t lie I was a child that had a problem with keeping my clothes on. My girlfriends and I would skinny dip while sipping our parents wine late at night, I would always be willing to streak with someone on a “dare” even though it wasn’t my dare, and I found myself dancing to Michael Jackson cassettes naked! There were no nude beaches in Ohio, and my parents didn’t take my sister and I to any nor did they even tell me about it. I merely discovered the nude beaches through the travel channel and one of my past boyfriends mothers told me about Fire Island when I first moved to NY. Before NY, going to a nude beach, for me, was a dream. This leads me into my next thoughts on life. Why are people so afraid of nudism, yet it’s the most popular business technique. You see internet porn, risky American Apparel ads (not to mention Abercrombie and Fitches risky ad in the past year with all the nude people), Herbal Essances commercial, and the list goes on of well selling products that used nudity.CURRENT REAL LIFE EXAMPLE: I mean look Britney Spears who has been out of the picture since her marriage and kids, is now in the highlight because of her wild “partying” with Paris Hilton. Their way of getting cameras/press is nudity-Paris had her run in with the porno tapes and now Brittney + her with the paparazzi vagina shots. Now I give Paris credit because she is obviously comfortable with herself and lives life the way she wants (you go girl!). Brittney uses excuses for her nudity, because of the way people around her treat the subject. Once people start shit taking her “new” life she claimed she forgot them and that she hasn’t partied in awhile.  My new favorite quote I read in the AM NYC newspaper Dec 8, 2006 by Brittney Spears in response to the no undie photos was “Thank god for Victoria Secrets new underwear line!” Sorry Brit I don’t think your VS promo will help you get hired by them. Now, I don’t pay attention to this Hollywood gossip crap normally, but I realized how much it reflects on my current situation. Brit want to have “fun” so she didn’t wear undergarments, yet she wore the clothes that were necessary to be socially correct. I’m not shit talking her, but I think her and Paris would have been better off going to a private nude beach. Maybe even make a private tape to help with Paris recent lack of press? Hahahah j/k just wishing they would (honestly I would buy it, but Brittney needs to be in the school girl skirt). So people were appalled by mother Brit’s behavior, but in reality she was having the same feelings as me-celebration of herself! I guess once you have an image you got to maintain it in that industry. I think Brit should be friends with Madonna instead of Paris. At least Madonna wouldn’t have cared, fuck the singer made an erotica book and look she is still on top. She’s like totally desired by fashion designers at H&M even though she has been seen “naked” and is 48 yrs old. Madonna is fucking timeless! ------->Okay I’ve ranted enough about relations. It’s time I ask you do a favor for me at some point this week. All I ask of my readers is that at some point (even if its within the month), think of some things you like about your body, think about why you are thankful you are here, think about how your body and soul are connected to the earth (in a scientific way)….then when your comfortable and understand yourself a bit more do something naked. Get out of the shower and make some phone calls naked (no sex lines be serious make business or catalog orders calls), cook yourself your favorite meal naked (I’d avoid any grill action or oil frying foods), walk around your backyard naked, if your feeling a little wild get naked somewhere public (I like going to state parks parking lots and bring lunch to eat there naked while looking at the natural wonders of the earth). Just do something, even if it is a simple as eating breakfast buck naked.  I’d love to hear if anyone actually does try my idea. Please respond in my forum or to me through email.Peace, love, & HappinessSativa

Has the rock group The Beatles influenced your life choices?

Has Walt Whitman and Allen Ginsberg ever made you think deeply about your life and how you relate to the earth?

 

I’ve lived through the words and reflections of these people. Unfortunately, in the midst of my “maturing” –ages 18-21- I was influenced and jumping the bandwagon to “fit in” with a group of misfits I surrounded myself around. Luckily I have a couple really good friends that helped remind me I had my own hopes and ideals. These goals could only be accomplished by my guidance. So I found this quote from Gene Simmons that pretty much is the lesson I’ve learned.

 

“Drugs are even worse. And if you know alcoholics or drug addicts -- ditch 'em. Treat them like the plague. Not just because it's the right thing to do, but because, again, if money is the most important thing in the world, those goofballs will only cost you money in the bank. You may find yourself losing a lot of friends, he counsels, but that's the tough choice you've got to make. I've personally alienated a lot of my cronies by constantly talking stocks. People may dislike others with such an intense interest in money, but if you want to make more of that money, you've got to find new friends, apparently.” (Simmons)

Mallas, Steven. "Foolish Book Review: Sex, Money, KISS." Foolish Book Review: Sex, Money, KISS [fool.com: Commentary] August 25, 2006. 25 August 2006. Foolish Book Reviews. 7 Dec 2006 <http://72.14.209.104/search?q=cache:QjAnH2FWu-IJ:www.fool.com/news/commentary/2006/commentary06082502.htm+gene+simmons+drug+quote&hl=en&gl=us&ct=clnk&cd=7>. 

At the end there is a new beginning. Trust me; it was a long way down to the place where I started from.  I felt an intense neural mental state that rose from subject to subject of my past, ups and downs. I was an over stuffed potato filled with injustice, deadness, ugliness, weakness, falseness, deceit, chaos, honesty, truth, beauty, humor, liveliness, power (but not abusive power), order , and intelligence.  Not that these aren’t natural feelings everyone has throughout their life, I just feel I felt every one of those feelings in less than six months. Intense!!! Anyways back to the quote from earlier those people start to dislike you and in some cases don’t act “mature.” This leads me to my next quote on my response to everything….

Mahatma Gandhi remarked on the lex talionis: "An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth and the whole world would soon be blind and toothless."

 

I know it seems I got off the subject of the people I mention being a common influence, but I didn’t. All my life I followed my parent’s guidelines (similar lessons are taught in Bearstine Bear books) and mostly rocked out to old music like the Beatles Janis Jimmy and Led Zeppelin. During my “unfortunate” state I stopped listening to these bands and was not really listening to music at all, in fact I don’t think I did anything?!? Climbing back up I revisited my past and realized that not only did my parents shape me but the music and poetry I’ve enjoyed influenced my life too. I listened to Beatles 1 today and realized I life is so much better when you think about what the lyrics tell you in the songs (not to mention if you ever read books about this group-which I have-there are a lot of beliefs I share & have learned from them). Walt Whitman made my beliefs strong when he began the transcendentalist movement. The belief is an ideal spiritual state that 'transcends' the physical and empirical and is only realized through the individual's intuition, rather than through the doctrines of established religions. I don’t have a religion, but I do follow Buddhism. I make that my religious exception.

 

“I have heard what the talkers were talking, the talk of the
    beginning and the end,
But I do not talk of the beginning or the end.

There was never any more inception than there is now,
Nor any more youth or age than there is now,
And will never be any more perfection than there is now,
Nor any more heaven or hell than there is now.”

 

Walt Whitman Leaves of Grass Song of Myself -3

  

All in all I hope this explains some of my deeper side (rather than deep in me side :-P )

 

<3

Sativa verte

     

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Okay I've been busy working a lot!!! Hopping on flights and driving from NYC-FL-VT-OH-to back home again! My dream to have a job that allows me to be the boss, and travel the roads of my country is coming true! Nonetheless, in the midst of leaving home I lost my internet (no access in VT, busy shooting, and my home system went haywire). Talk about desperation! My whole life is based in the web realm… to lose it almost drove me insane. Until I remembered an important quality I possess, and that is faith in me. I spent two hours programming two computers wireless systems, with the help of two men outsourced in India and the Philippians. The more problems you run into during life, will just make you all the wiser! So, after all my on the road time I did have some new experiences occur. I invited one of my family members to help me film a fetish video. Yes, this sounds odd but I was only using my sister, and the material is pg rated. I recently opened an online store alternatively to having a member’s site for now.  I will be opening a member’s area within the next 6 months, for I maybe merging with another adult site to make our work together!! Very excited, but nonetheless my store is http://www.clips4sale.com/store/5269 where I add and edit short video clips from my daily life. My sister filmed me doing a chew video, a fetish I find rather cute. Honestly, when I go out to eat with new people they always compliment me on what I eat an how I do it. I became conscious people take notice in this after I discovered food chew fetish. Men and women evaluate my health to make sure I am the fine specimen I appear to be J, after watching me chew they will know if they want to mate with a creature like myself!!! But I also like chew videos because it legitimately entertains me to no end to talk to a camera while I dine alone some nights! I get a kick out of cooking and munching! BACK to my sister, of 17 years, is filming me for my new adult fetish site in the middle of an Ohio buffet style dining place. Holy shit was in funny as hell to mix up a “sativa” style meal, and show my sister how easy it is to have fun and do the simplest things people love! Learning about fetishes really makes you appreciate life a little more. I haven’t added this video yet but it is great!! I was in Ohio shooting for three days with an art nude photographer that is well known in Cleveland for his outdoor publications and alternative composite style. We’ve shot in the past and decided to do a three day shoot. I brought my video camera (even though he shoots stills) because I wanted to shoot stuff privately in my spare time when we were done with the work day. I found myself hiding the camera in rooms while we were shooting, or filming myself in the bathroom during my breaks, and even masturbating in this guys shower! I mean I’m sure if I told him what I did it wouldn’t be a crime, however I didn’t…and kept it as my dirty little secret. I get such a thrill out of having orgasms in risky places. Like outdoors, while driving, in the theaters…I think I need to buy a pair of those vibrating panties and try the grocery store. Anyways ya’ll know I’m a crazy horny girl and I’m in my prime! Okay covered Ohio….Vermont is where I spent my Thanksgiving hitting the slopes early @ Killington Ski resort, busting up wood for the fire, and fucking in a supposed haunted house. I may have been posses by a ghost or there was something in the food, because I was so horny!! I couldn’t stop fucking and moaning each morning (the lucky guy is a very horny German). Then off to do outdoor adventures and hang out with friends. But this was a first I was so horny that I had squirted while I was at a Vermont store. I was standing in line and was thinking of fucking, so I was squeezing + flexing my kegal muscles. I kept flexing no one noticed, and then I changed the pace and all of a sudden I felt my pussy start to squirt. Then a draft came through the open door and I felt it on my pants. Embarrassed thinking I pissed myself, I ran to the car. My friend followed very confused by my erratic actions, and asked “what happened?” I pull down my pant and seen a little 2 inch wet dot, then down my panties came, and there in the Vermont morning sun glistened a wet cummy pair of panties. I’ve only squirted a couple times in my life (two times previously) and that time wasn’t the most convenient of times, but at least I had a nice guy to lick me up clean in the end J After returning home I recognized why I was so horny in VT, I could be because of one or two things; A. I was in fact not myself and a horny haunted spirit took over my soul and was out to fuck the German non-stop or B. I was 100% relaxed (something I haven’t had in a long time and I’ll explain why…I had no internet or cell phone service, abundance of food, a big historial forest to hike and two people who really enjoy sex as a past time)  Okay VT was awesome, FL was quick and sadly cold. However the cold Floridian weather made for a lot of nice hottie poked out nipple shots! God I get super wet when I wear no bra and tank tops…when my nipples get hard and rub on the shirt from moving around, my pussy starts to literally drip! I’ve been known to just have orgasms from nipple play….all in all my photo shoot was awesome, but too cold for beach bikini shots. I did shoot on a nice farm with Spanish moss on the trees, and went on the nicest yacht I’ve ever been on (and I was the first model the photographer ever shot with on it)! Having to shoot on the yacht and being the first model the photographer allowed made me feel honored, trusted, and gosh darn it *special* heheheh. Well now I’m back in NY fending for sleep before I leave for CA for a week of shooting a semi reality program for the documentary entitled “Naked America”. I’m very excited about this I will be at deserts shadow inn in palms springs, CA – for FREE – be jealous! While home I will deal with reality- fixing computers, film editing, updating websites, blogging, answering an abundance of emails from lack of internet on the road and back! That stuff is actually fun I love editing photo and video, writing, and visiting the ones I Love near home. Okay the emails aren’t that fun it can be disturbing and at times makes me wish I smoked again. But emails are my connection to information pertaining to me. Update #1: I got an email from a friend congratulating me on the OMP Halloween Contest in which I came in second place. Not bad but it was a winner takes all and I don’t think I won a prize? Update #2: I got an email from XSmagazine announcing the winner of Nov. was up, and again it was not me-however I feel that I didn’t submit the right type of pictures for the magazines search (I should have used more bikini or implied nudes). Update #3: Thank you Brazil I love your new affection for me! I’ve found a lot of articles and write ups about me in Brazil. Update #4: Thanks for checking me out I’m now past 20,000 hits! I took a break away from my computer to finish up holiday shopping and gift wrapping (music fav’s: Mariah Carey and Sara Mc is in the spirit at my crib). I’ve been done with Xmas since Nov but went out for the wrappings and gift certificates. I also watched Charlie Brown Xmas (as an adult I now notice they use the word commercialism a lot throughout those movies-I never noticed that in my younger years), and Rudolph the red nose reindeer (the complete classic). I also spent two days waxing my VW so it’s protected for the winter. Damn, I love rolling around in a well taken care of vehicle, nothing screams class more that a nice shiny car! I also have been editing all the new videos on my clips4sale store: Deflowering Sativa Verte’s fetishes. That is so much fun, but time consuming. Well I have more of the world to conquer, will be writing new blogs often again soon!

So many things to write about, and I feel all backed up (seriously I mean it the way it sounds).

Whoa okay her is some past updates i haven't put on here yet:
Time flys when you have fun...
and so does your money :-)
Traveling to shoots and for vacation has really made me no longer a resident of any state. All I can say is "yea my shit is in a house that I pay 775 a month for and am only there 45 mins a month!"
Funny or not, I miss NY. NYC is my home base, the world is my live in location. You put me anywhere i will enjoy every moment, but deep down I belong in NY. Its my kinda life, my love for diversity, openness to new foods, and the excitement of meeting new people that challenge me! Ny has it all. The only place I can say I fly or drive into looking at the amazing building and lights (imagining times in the past till now-the development of such a city!), and I fucking tear up. I think thank god I left Ohio and live in such a beautiful, welcoming, open-minded place. shit I'm crying now thinking of such a great place that exsist and belong too!
I'll be home soon...

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